Y’all, I’m sick of trying to fit into my pre-pregnancy clothes. I didn’t just go up one pant size, I went up three! I walk into my closet everyday and see lots of shirts and pants that I can’t fit into anymore, but I don’t want to give anything away. I keep thinking, “But what if….” It does a number to one’s self confidence.
I hear over and over, “You can get your body back after baby!” And it just makes me feel so guilty. I’ve always been a fairly active person and, for the most part, OK about my appearance. It’s devastating to know how your body felt before and not be able to go back.A lot of mamas get their pre-baby body back or better! They work really hard at eating right and exercising, but for some of us, it’s really hard. I mean really, really hard. Here is a little insight into why it’s been a struggle for me. Can you relate?
Meal Prep Is Stressful
I have the tools to meal prep for the week, but it’s down right stressful for me to think about all the food I would have to buy and prepare for me, my husband, and a 15 month old for the entire week. I am a slow cook and would rather spend my Sundays playing with my son and resting. So, I’ve decided to do what I can! The last couple weeks I have been doing one thing in the crock pot and another “one pot meal” on the stove. However many portions it makes is what it makes and I’m not going to stress myself out and double the recipes unless I know I can handle it. If we have to buy some Chick-fil-A or a frozen meal from H-E-B, it’s ok!
My Body Shape Has Changed
A baby changes everything and more! My hips aren’t the same and my breasts grew an entire cup size. These aren’t necessarily bad things and not all women may experience these changes, but because my shape is different the clothes I wore pre-baby don’t fit the same. I’m beginning to learn that’s ok!
My Medication Isn’t Helping
I can’t be 100% certain unless I stop taking it, but my antidepressants are not helping my situation much. I’m not gaining weight, but I’m certainly not losing it either; even when I was super on track with my work out schedule and eating right most of the time. My mental health is more important than trying to fit in those pre-baby jeans.
None of these things are meant to be excuses. It’s important to have a good diet and get exercise. Both of those things can be linked to mental health. This is a journey filled with ups and downs.
So, momma, go buy some new clothes that fit. Don’t worry about the number on the tag. It’s hard on one’s mental health when you are trying to squeeze into clothes that just don’t fit anymore. Maybe you will get back into them, or maybe not. What’s more important is that you are healthy mentally and physically.
With hope and healing,
Brittany
You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the Lord will give you, Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the Lord will be with you.
2 Chronicles 20:17 (NIV)
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My Beloved 